LOST FILES
PART TWO:
LIGHT
What is "Lost Files"?
"Lost Files" is the loss that we took from getting my camera destroyed, but the win that we gained from picking ourselves up and coming back greater than ever.
"Lost Files" are all the photos gone but the memories never forgotten.
"Lost Files" was the path we were on, but the universe gave us a destiny.
"Lost Files" is what we were, but the Otto family is different now.
"Lost Files" is the start of our new beginning.
"Light"?
"Light" is the
representation of Otto's rebirth. We survived the storm and were able to see the sun again. We are stronger than we ever been, and we have so much in store for our future. Cheers to brighter days and prosperity.
otto angels
astrid,
mav,
hippo,
lena,
maria.
(photos by maria x rob)
(@mvriamellone x @3lugino)
lovely maria
My object was a camera, I brought a camera to the shoot because it represents my passion. I have a passion for modeling and I love being in front of a camera it makes me feel confident and I know most people get shy in front of a camera but it makes me feel alive. That sounds super corny but it makes me feel good and free it is really one of my passions and I enjoy being behind the camera as well I love photography. I love all types of photography because I feel like life moves by really fast and capturing moments are a really precious thing, so that is why I brought a camera.
The incident with tiff’s camera made me feel very sad that people could discard and destroy someone’s possessions for no reason and especially because it had all of our hard work in that camera in that SD card and it was just gone. but in life when things like that happen you have to bounce back like it never even happened so I am happy that the group can get together again and still have an amazing time and positive vibes. When you’re passionate about something nothing will stop you so 1 million cameras can burn down but we will still all be working our asses off to make this magazine work. and work on crafting our passions and just continue on growing ourselves and being successful people.
an excerpt by lovely jamila
an excerpt by lovely mav
what it do baybeee!
i’m savagemavage AKA wÿrdœ
i’m a creative/ public figure/ model/ actress/ writer/ artist/ business queen ...etc, i do a lot of shit basically cause i don’t limit myself.
i remember in the winter of 2018 i wanted to expand myself more. i’ve always been very insecure and wanted to try modeling but was very nervous to even try. one of my friends told me a photographer needed an extra model for a shoot and suggested me for it.
it was my first shoot ever and i was so nervous, it turns out the shoot was for Tiff! and she made me feel SO comfortable and appreciated during it. i’ve loved her since that day.
later on she reached out and mentioned that she wanted to start OTTO MAGAZINE and invited me to be one of the models.
i was so fucking honored that she wanted me to be a part of something so beautiful.
in the spring we had our first shoot and it was such beautiful energy during it.
we turned into a family instead of business partners.
for a while in 2019 i wasn’t very involved because i hit a really low point in my life where i couldn’t focus on anything. i had to take a small break and missed out on some beautiful shoots and memories. but spring 2019 i came back feeling so much better and ready to give my all for issue 3.
we had such beautiful shoots, we worked our asses off and literally almost kicked out of the museum for being BAD BITCHES!!!
i was in ohio when everyone was going to heatwave, i was so pissed i missed out on the fun. then i heard about the incident.
i was so heartbroken. i couldn’t believe someone could do such evil to someone as pure as Tiff.
all that came back to me was the moments i’ve shared with OTTO and how much Tiff has made me feel capable and beautiful and appreciated. she’s one of the main reasons why i have confidence and balls enough to stand in front of a camera. she literally dragged me out of my shell, and to hear that her most priced possession was stolen and burned!!!
we were all so furious, we lost so much from our projects.
BUT THAT WAS NOT GOING TO STOP US !!!
this tragedy has only shaped us to be stronger and to never let anything affect us. we came back even harder and now we’re really gonna violate!
we’re back baby and we’re never going anywhere.
OTTO MAGAZINE is my family, we’re strong and powerful and talented as fuck.
i hope everyone enjoys issue 3!
WE HAVE SO MUCH MORE COMING TO YOU GUYS SOON!!!
an excerpt by lovely hippo
I go by the name of BountyOnHippo. Musician, Model, Creative, businessman and artistic icon. aside from all of that I’m a member of OTTO MAG and we recently went through something really upsetting for our family. The “lost files” incident. The night of Heatwave I was on my way home from the event when I found out what had happened to our PremeTiff’s camera and I was honestly shaken up and infuriated. Most of issue 3 and Tiff’s personal shoots were in there and I couldn’t believe that someone would deliberately take her camera just to destroy it. What kind of animal would do that? Was she targeted? Did they know who’s camera they had just stolen?. We’ve been working on this 3rd issue for a while now and the lost files incident was the last thing we thought would happen. Regardless, we were at a slump. At one point We didn’t even know what to do. But we got up shook the dust off our shoulders we figured it out. After all the tears, the frustration, the unanswered questions and confusion we are back and better than ever. Focused, driven and ready to create new, better things. Otto magazine is full of incredibly talented and dedicated people and we are much stronger than some edgy kid trying to get a quick laugh with his friends. We along side our Otto mag affiliates are the future of New York City. With that being said, we are OTTO MEN. We are OTTO WOMEN. WE ARE OTTO WORLD. And there’s nothing that can ever change that. We will tackle every obstacle fearlessly and with all of our combined strength. I myself am very confident in my skill as an artist and my individual strength. And I’m so proud to be able to say that about every other member in my Otto fam as well. The “lost files” incident was very upsetting and unfortunate but it only made us stronger. A setback can only set-us-back as far as we allow it to and we refuse to allow anybody or anything destroy what we’ve built. BountyOnHippo, PremeTiff, and Otto magazine will all be names that will live on forever and there’s nothing anyone can do to stop us! I love my family and I’m so excited for everyone to see what we have in store. 💜⚡️
lovely lena
an excerpt by lovely astrid
Lost files emphasizes the beauty within pain, struggle and imperfections. Tiffs camera being stolen was only one part of of this journey we’ve been on as a family. We have never been afraid of our demons and this was just another example of that. We didn’t give up, we grew as individuals and even closer as a family. I am a strong believer of living in the present and growing from the past. We got something we loved taken away from us but we persevered and we’re here now more beautiful than ever. This issue holds so much intimacy, so much meaning for each and every one of us. For me, it’s embracing our imperfections, taking out struggles and making them into something beautiful, it’s individuality and all the complexities that come with it, it’s a rebirth.
an excerpt from yours truly, tiff
I decided to leave mine for last, and to do my portion of the shoot while i was in Rome I can honestly say that the whole experience changed my life. i see the world differently, i appreciate everything more than i ever have. though it was such a rough patch for me, with non stop crying and anger, i can say that it all ended up being positive. i can't wait to see my team and i all the way at the top, killing shit like we always do. I'm so proud of us for our growth and our strength. I'm blessed, I'm happy. from all of this happening, i gained knowledge, patience, more family, and more ambition. thank you everyone who were there, who showed me love, and pushed me to never stop going. thank you to neWave for everything they've done as well as my brother/manager aj. thank you to my otto family, i wouldn't have reached today without y'all. thank you to my family, and my best friends yani, marta and astrid. thank you to our supporters, our fans, and our friends.
more perspectives on "lost files" by our own.
Coming off the back of my first performance ever, tiff getting her camera stolen was heartbreaking. Amazing shoots and days of work from an entire collective gone in an instant just because some kid wanted to be edgy. But like a Phoenix we rose from the ashes and turned a negative into a positive, something I believe this group is best at; finding the positives in everything. The lost files are a testament to our dedication and perseverance. - JUSTIN
Have you ever seen someone you love cry? You get that feeling of complete helplessness. Your voice sounds like a broken record because the only thing your mind knows to say is “it’s going to be alright”, no matter how uncertain that may be at the moment. All you can do is hold them as tight as you can, as if you can transfer the pain through your veins. You feel their heartbeats exponentially getting faster and faster and faster... you’re thinking of ways to stop that. “What if i twirl her hair? She loves it when I do that” “Maybe I could play our favorite song?”
“Do I kiss them? That might only works in the movies...” But nothing works. Nothing. Works. All they needs is for you to be there with them. No words. In complete, and utter silence. Presence is all that’s desired, all that’s needed.
From the moment I stepped in that party to the moment she left with only her camera lens cap, Tiff & I were attached to the hip. Within 2 hours, everything changed. None of us walked out of that party the same.... in a good way, but under bad circumstances. It’s hard to explain what OTTO is today. We’re still a group of young individuals trying to find our own paths. But regardless of our individual goals, we all share a common goal of making OTTO known throughout the masses. - BERNIE
Besides going outside and skating, living recklessly, my real passion is Photography. It’s the only way on how I can express myself without feeling like I’m holding back or struggling. It gives me a reason on why I exist. I add my memories, what I explore and even my emotions into my vision. Sometimes I struggle with expression and like to repress a lot of things (which is the thing I am working on) but I like to give people a visual or even a song towards how I feel. I get to do whatever I want with a camera and not get judged by it.
I broke my camera awhile ago and it got me in a deep state of angst and fear and that was mostly what I was feeling about the “Lost Files.” Although it wasn’t my camera that was lost or even taken, it was still like my file or my eyes. I was annoyed because everything that we put our heart and souls into, in that card, was lost because someone had the audacity to steal it. See, as bad as it sounds, I’m glad the kid took it because now we are stronger than ever and now, it’s our chance to shine. Karma comes around. Karma comes and goes.
As a family although, that lost was a way that made us more determine to jump the man if I’m gonna be truthfully honest. Although we had some shots saved like mine and Noemi’s, it made us want to do even more because we lost so much content. It made us want to be on top of our game. More strict towards who really wants to represent us. Not only for ourselves but for Otto itself. - ROB
A moment like that when it felt everything before then was headed in the right direction shit could’ve been better it’s like having a thought then forgetting it and you dread it, working on a piece of writing and everything is going smoothly then the computer just dies and all is lost. Those lost files man it felt like having your soul and all you’ve put work into just ripped right from under you in the most joyous of occasions. It all hit us hard you know, I was there mad out my fucking mind because knowing how hard Tiff work and how methodical she is with what she does as a photographer shit at that point really felt like the end of something great well at least a stoppage and those tears weren’t just that “oh I lost my camera” no more so my life what I live for is gone. I hope to see those lost files again somehow there was some really immaculate work on that sd card last I remember which was shot with that camera is when we all went to the beach to shoot for the new issue that was great day. Nonetheless though as hard as it hit Tiff not the one to quit, we wouldn’t allow her to be honest we’re all apart of something great and to see it end without seeing where it can truly go, the heights it can reach, we have to keep going...no matter what.
-RAHEEM
